Differences between a couple...

Guess I will just write then...

I was sad when you said we are not meeting later part of the night. Two Fridays in a roll. How much does it tell me that we are drifting apart? You rather spend time with your friends than me. It's pathetic for me to voice this out, makes me feel like I am helpless and that I keep clinging onto you, while you so cool and willing not to meet.

Guess I have stressed you out with my demands. You had yours too, frankly. I won't go down the list knowing we will fight again. I have always love you with all my heart. I only know 相见恨晚, and that's what happened to us.

All I am asking for is just a verbal assurance (even once will do) that you are mine and I have nothing to worry about. Asking you is like (a big piece) of skin off your back. Is it your pride or is just that you don't know how to express yourself over affairs of the heart? Why is it so difficult for you? If I am in your heart, tell me, if not show me. I have been trying very hard to find a place in your heart... after all my efforts, I believe I am in your heart. But you are like my examiner, you have to let me know my results. I have taken many tests in my whole life and your test is the most difficult of all. I just want to know if I pass with flying colours for your test. This is the test that I have worked very hard on and I wanna excel on it!!!

Guess you are tired of trying and that also discouraged me from holding on. I am your giver (you are my giver too and I knowledge that sincerely) and I want to give willingly as well. But at least motivate me well. You can talk so sweet to your two boys yet you can't do that for me or even Gerald. Are we not your loves as well? Why so hard for you to express yourself to me?